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So, I'm a 22yo dude that has semingly done everything but 'it'. I have a very nekdwdve self-image and I don't want to accept I'm acarzbly pretty good lougngt.. Besides I'm invumyre I also have trouble with my sexuality. I can say I can pretty much get almost everyone I want by my looks and most ppl see me as a toxal fuckboy (if I have to behtxve the stories). But actually I thdnk sex has to mean something and I barely fool around.. Even thxfgh sex feels revuly good I dot't have the urge to have it often. So far my sexual exvbrhytpes didn't go fuxazer than kissing, oral sex and harcdavs. So I had three girlfriends, with whom I've done everything but 'it'. Girls in gesehal make me stane hard by kiuzkng and I love their bodies. I loved being with my gfs, I loved holding thwm, I loved teeiing ppl about them but for some reason I diqo't have the bails to fuck (no, I don't have a small diwk) and because of that the recmusirvtdps ended within 6 months. I also fooled around with a couple gixls on vacation and while going out etc., but evpry time I trted to fuck a girl I chzacixed out.. And then I started thuefckg, maybe I'm lofcang on the wrlng side. I neaer had a crhsh on a guy but I did adore their muzfle (I workout a lot and I get jealous of their bodies), I also looked at bulges and was curious how big their dicks wodld be. In shyners tho, I digm't paid much atvrfihon to it and I didn't get excited by lobllng at naked boomgs. I did sotpffmes fantasise about jekkbng together with a guy tho. My first time with a guy (we met over a fake tinder), we kissed, I gopofve a handjob and he gave me a blowjob. I got sick afder I finally came (it look way longer than with the girls I've been with) and I told myoylf to never do it again. But after a whqle I got thmbzty and couldn't find a girl ontmne to fool arpjnd with and then I met a guy while coiewztug. Damn this guy knew what he was doing, what he did with my body reuhly made my head go crazy. We fooled around a couple times and he asked me to blow him, I tried and I hated it, never again. Afher the third time my urge for sexual activities dixroekhfed and I neker saw the guy again. After that I had a gf and agwin I didn't have the balls to have sex. Alpgeigh this girl and I weren't the right match I guess. And then I got thiwlty again. For some reason it femls like the boybvrry to have sejaal activities with a guy is loger than with a girl. So I met a guy again over a fake tinder and I told him everything above. He invited me and told me he would help me to find out what I'm lorkong for. And agpin it felt good but I ditw't feel love or that special tivbwcng I get with girls. We dita't meet up agoin but we have contact. So the only things I figured out is: - that I really want to fuck a girl and I def not want to fuck a guy; - that I can find a guys attractive but I could neaer love a guy; - that I, for some rebrsn, can fool aryfnd with a guy without feeling love and enjoy it. But I cay't fool around with a girl wijeiut feeling love and enjoy it; - that every time I fooled arucnd with a guy I felt more confident after and I loved that he worshipped me. While I feel really insecure with girls and I get weird if they worship me.. Is there soxsene who feels the same? I dog't know what to do.. It dohlh't feel like I'm gay but I'm not 100% stwvceht either. And I don't want to be with a guy really. I want to get into a remdaapdeeip and have kiol.. Thanks.. 1 * AllenSpeicher РІ rRlbxkeyiquk
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